chocolat by Kaya

kanji:
ショコラ
melt my heart
ほどけていく心の刺
甘くとろけるように
きつく抱いていて

眠れない夜には
醒めない夢と甘いリキュール
色褪せた傷跡
苦い過は乾杯して　さよなら

すべてを恨んだ夜を越えて
みつけた　『居場所』

melt my heart
ほどけていく心の刺
甘くとろけるように
きつく抱いていて
melt your heart
嘲笑われても　構わないわ
かたく繋いだ手を
どうか離さないで口癖のように繰り返す自己否定
求めていたのは
　「必要」　という　たった一言

甘く馨るショコラのような恋に
ずっと酔いしれて生きていきましょう

melt my heart
ほどけていく心の刺
甘くとろけるように
きつく抱いていて
melt your heart
嘲笑われても　構わないわ
かたく繋いだ手を
どうか離さないで

romaji:
Chocolat
Melt my heart
hodokete iku kokoro no toge
amaku torokeru you ni
kitsuku daite ite

nemurenai yoru ni wa
samenai yume to amai rikyu-ru
iroaseta kizuato
nigai kako wa kanpai shite sayonara

subete o uranda yoru o koete
mitsuketa [ibasho]

melt my heart
hodokete iku kokoro no toge
amaku torokeru you ni
kitsuku daite ite
melt your heart
(aza)warawarete mo kamawanai wa
kataku tsunaida te o
douka hanasanaide

kuchiguse no you ni
kurikaesu jiko hitei
motomete ita no wa
[hitsuyou] to iu tatta hitokoto

amaku kaoru shokora no you na koi ni
zutto yoishirete ikite ikimasho

melt my heart
hodokete iku kokoro no toge
amaku torokeru you ni
kitsuku daite ite
melt your heart
(aza)warawaretemo kamawanai wa
kataku tsunaida te o
douka hanasanaide

translation: (from youtube)
Melt my heart
the thorns in my heart start to come undone
hold me tightly
so they'll sweetly melt away

in sleepless nights
a neverending dream and sweet wine
my scars had begun to fade
I'll lift my glass to a bitter past and bid it
goodbye
crossing over the nights I cursed everything
I've found the place where I belong

melt my heart...

melt your heart
let them jeer... I won't mind
so whatever you do please
don't take your clasped hand from mine

the self-denial I keep repeating
as if it were my trademark
all I ever wanted
was to hear the single phrase "I need you"

in a love like sweetly fragrant chocolate
let's live in intoxication forever more

melt my heart...

melt your heart...

Tags: kaya chocolat

[x] is for yes
[ ] is for no

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes. [a lot]
[X] I have many scars.
[X] I tan easily. [But I don't sunbathe]
[X] I wish my hair was a different color.
[X] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. [jeez...]
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces. [really long time, that's the reason I don't chew food]
[X] I wear glasses. [near-sighted here]
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. [weird and freaky strangers]
[X] I have more than 2 piercing.
[X] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles. [only spots and moles]
[ ] I hate my dad
[ ] I hate my mom
[X] I have a brother
[ ] I have a sister
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home. [no, but want it since I was a kid]
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[X] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday. [I already know the names I want to give them]
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[ ] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[X] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[X] I had a serious surgery. [well, not THAT serious...]
[X] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[X] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[X] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city. [I'm a failure at locations]
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. [I'm a nerdy good girl]
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. [sometimes I really wanted it >D ]
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[X] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car. [slightly...]
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[X] I've been in a play. [I was friggin Snow White's stepmother and Beauty]
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night. [aw, now I want it xD ]
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[X] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I've eaten sushi. [<3]
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[x] I'm single. [the guy I like either hates me T^T or is too shy o.O ]
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[X] I've gone on a blind date. [CRAP!!!]
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment. [Love me, feed me, never leave me.]
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I'm bi
[ ] I'm gay
[X] I've had sex
[ ] I've had phone sex
[ ] I've cybered
[ ] I've had sex in public.
[X] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain. [no, but wish]
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[X] I have kissed a stranger. [I know I could have gotten so many diseases]
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world. [m'uahahahahah]
[ ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[X] I've run a red light. [got a ticket to prove x.X ]
[ ] I've been suspended from school. [almost...]
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[X] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem. [without water, just like Dr House]
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed. [I'm needy]
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose. [scratching counts?]
[ ] I've woken up crying. [no, but slept very often]
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[X] I hate funerals.
[X] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[X] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[X] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own a plushie of my fave character from anything
[X] I own a cosplay outfit
[X] I know what cosplay means
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[X] I collect comic books.
[X] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[X] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs. [Die, die, DIE!]
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[X] I curse regularly. [on traffic]
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[X] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. [FEAR]
[X] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate. [it doesn't satisfy you o.O ]
[ ] I bite my nails.
[X] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces. [I suck at it, sorry if I don't recognise you]
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[ ] I loath labels
[X] I like action movies
[ ] I like horror movies
[x] I like chick flicks
[X] I know the most random facts about things people have never heard of before
[ ] I can't spell
[X] I treasure my friends
[X] I think of others before myself

[X] All of those are answered honestly

Lonely in gorgeous - Tommy February6
Paradise Kiss op song

午前0時、飛び出した
扉を蹴飛ばして
硝子の靴が割れて
ドレスも破れた
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
At midnight, I rushed out
I kicked the door,
my glass slipper broke,
and tore my dress

ねぇ　呆れているんでしょう?
追いかけてもこない
涙が溢れて　もう走れないわ...
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Hey, it's amazing, isn't it?
Even if I chase you, you won't come
Tears fill up my eyes, and I can't run anymore

ジェラシーかも...セ-ツ-ナ-イ...!!
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Maybe it's jealousy... I'm s-a-d...!!

“Lonely in Gorgeous” Yeah...
Party night...I’m Breaking my heart
今すぐ見つけて抱きしめてほしい
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...
Party night...I'm Breaking my heart
I want you to find me and hold me now

ヘッドライトが光る
...where are you Bad boy?
愛のスカーフで涙を拭いて
何も見えない
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
My headlights are shining
...where are you Bad boy?
I wipe away my tears with the scarf of love
and I can't see anything

星屑をかき集め
あなたにぶつけたい
なぜ構うの?
自分しか愛せないくせに...
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
as I'm gathering up stardust
I bump into you
Why do you care?
You can't love anyone but yourself...

失恋かも...マジなの...?!
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
Maybe it's heartbreak... For real...?!

“Lonely in Gorgeous” Yeah...
Party time...埋まらない
あなたがいないと　空っぽな世界
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...
Party time... I feel empty
When you're not here, it's an empty world

夢の続きが見たい
“I miss you Bad boy”
きらめきの中に閉じ込めないで
壊れてしまうわ
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I want to see the continuation of the dream
"I miss you Bad boy"
don't shut yourself away amidst the shining,
it will break me apart

"Lonely in Gorgeous"
I'm Breaking my heart
Where are you Bad boy?
"Lonely in Party night"

"Lonely in Gorgeous"
I'm Breaking my heart
I miss you Bad boy
"Lonely in Party time"

“Lonely in Gorgeous” Yeah...
Party night...笑えない
何もいらない　ただそばにいて
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...
Party night...I can't laugh
I don't need anything, just stay by my side

“Lonely in Gorgeous” Yeah...
Party night...
I’m Breaking my heart
あなたが残した　きらめきの箱の中で
孤独を抱いて動けない
何もいらないの　ただそばにいて
ひざまずいて　わたしを見て
愛を誓って
。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...
Party night...
I'm Breaking my heart
In the sparkling box you left behind,
I held my loneliness and can't move
I don't need anything, just stay by my side
Bend down on your knees, look at me,
and promise that you love me

Light
[] You have a big aim in life
[x] You hate to lose
[] You feel that your eyes change colours with your behaviour
[x] You are obsessed.
[x] Your intelligence is superior in comparison with another people's one. (depends on the other person lolz)
[] You don’t mind hurting others as long it helps you to get to your aims
[] You have talent to seduce the opposite gender
Total: 3

L
[x] You love candy
[x] You don’t care about how you look
[x] You walk/ sit curvate
[] You are a genius
[x] You have dark circles around your eyes (I look like a panda bear o.O )
[x ] You are very thin don’t matter what you eat (Even if you eat sweets, if you use your head you won't get fat ;D )
[x] You don’t have many friends and you are a total failure at love
Total: 5

Misa
[] You love someone blindly
[] You would do everything for that ‘someone’
[x] You dress in a very peculiar way
[] You can’t tell when people are joking around with you
[] You can’t afford alcohol very well
[x] You are very jealous
[] You can make people do what they don’t want to.
Total: 2

Mello
[x] You love chocolate
[x] You were confused at least for once with the opposite gender
[] You always dress dark and tight clothes (Don't wear all the time, but love it anyway)
[x] You are always the second
[x] You have a burnt/ scar on your face
[x] You are very intelligent, but sometimes you make mistakes
[x] Near creeps you out a little bit
Total: 6

Matt
[] You are always playing videogames
[] You smoke
[x] You wear streaky shirts
[] You would do anything for your friends
[] You use glasses that looks like goggles
[] You are always relaxed
[] You are very affected to your best friend
Total: 1

Near
[] You are patient to the limit
[] You always win
[] You have the Peter Pan syndrome
[] You love to wear pyjamas
[] You are very intelligent
[x] You have a lot of ability using your hands (Piano player here)
[] Your hair is of a weird colour
Total: 1

Mikami
[x] You believe in a god (Tori Maia is God!)
[] You search for justice in everywhere
[x] You use glasses (I'm near-sighted T^T )
[ ] You are/ want to be a lawyer
[] You don’t care about following orders as long as it's for justice's sake
[] You support Kira unconditionally
[] All your life is perfectly planned
Total: 2

Ryuk
[x] You love apples
[] You are bored
[] You think that human are… INTERESTING!
[] You laugh in a weird way… Hyuk, hyuk, hyuk…
[] You don’t let your feelings lead you
[] When there’ s an argument, you never take one of the sides
[x] You are a little bit crazy and weird
Total: 2

Matsuda
[x] Some people think that you are an idiot
[] You always see someone's good side
[] You know someone who is an example for you
[] You don’t think Kira is neither good or evil
[] You talk about a love life that you don’t have
[] You do stupid things that sometimes are good to the ones around you
[] You are pretty, but old.
Total: 1


result: I'm Mello

Tags: mello death note quiz

Age: 22
B-day: 9th oct
horoscope: libra
blood type: O
height: 1,62
weight: ?
shoe size: 37 (brazilian), 8 (USA)

family members: mother, father, little brother
occupation: student
personality: cute and delicate (on the outside)
hobby: music, drawing
special ability: play the piano
highest education completed: high school

questions:
1. what do you like and what are you weak against?
Music, sushi, yaoi manga, patting in the head.
Clothes.
2. the thing you desire the most right now?
Marry and have kids.
3. the thing you value the most?
good taste.
4. secret treasure?
yaoi manga collection
5. most expensive item you've bought and the price?
don't have an income
6. when do you feel happiness?
When I'm with someone I like
7. what made you happy recently?
met friends from school
8. motto.
"kahou ha nete mate"
9. if you were born a man?
would never grow a beard
10. your dream when you were young?
be a vet
11. if there's 100 million yen (aprox 1 million US dolars), how will you use it?
travel to France (and Japan, to go to rock concerts and buy Vivienne stuff)
12. if you're going to an uninhabited island, what "one" thing will you bring for sure?
iPod
13. if you can only live 3 more years?
cherish each day
14. which part of your body do you wash first?
head
15. which kind of underwear do you want your lover to wear?
boxers
16. when you like someone, which part attracts you the most?
voice and hands
17. what did the person you liked do that made you really happy?
he came to my piano recital
18. when is the last time you've cried?
Watching Fuyu no semi

Seeing friends from school is really nice...
I only know today how much I love my friends, that I know for over... 10 years or so...
and the funniest thing is how they haven't changed in all this time...
really haven't changed.
and it is recomforting to know that.

extract:
"I hope you understand my foolish love for you, which made me always wish to stay longer, just a little longer, at your side.
But now, I do not regret that the time I was able to spend with you has ended, though it lasted only a short while.
Even in this age of winter, the time that I spent with you was not a lie."
Akizuki

Winter cicada - Fuyu no semi
by Nitta Youka
translation by Aarinfantasy

The flame - Penicillin

Another night slowly closes in and I feel so lonely
Touching heat freezing on my skin I pretend you still hold me
I'm going crazy I'm losing sleep I'm in too far
I'm in way too deep over you
I can't believe you're gone You were the first You'll be the last
CHORUS:
Wherever you go I'll be with you
Whatever you want I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone To lay your heart and head upon
Remember after the fire After all the rain
I will be the
flame I will be the flame
Watching shadows move across the wall Feels so fright'ning
I wanna run to you I wanna call But I've been hit by lightning
Just can't stand up for falling apart
Can't see through this veil across my heart over you
You'll always be the one You were the first You'll be the last
CHORUS:
I'm going crazy I'm losing sleep I'm in way too deep over you
You'll always be the one You were the first You'll be the last
CHORUS

(Cheap trick cover)

in loving memory of P.

A survey I found somewhere in the net.

British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[ ] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[x] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[x] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 4

Australian
[x] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard barbie.
[ ] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[ ] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing. (dirty mouth here *~*)
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned. (I'm snow white)
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an australian something
Total: 2

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[x] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[x] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''
[ ] You know what a italian horn is
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[x] You talk with your hands. (hm, this is not elegant o.O)
Total: 6

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[x] You speak spanish or some. (but poorly --___--)
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total: 5

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha. (Nati!! ^-^)
[x] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 5

Irish
[x] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[ ] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have red hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing
Total: 2

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun
[ ] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[ ] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[x] You can dance.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 2

Asian
[x] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[x] You are good at math. (Nerd... >.<
[x] You have played the piano. (I do play it ^.^)
[x] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth. (everytime ^3^)
[x] Most people think you're chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 7

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[ ] You Speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2.
Total: 5

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[x] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[x] You speak some french.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total: 3

American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[ ] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[ ] You abortion.
[ ] But love the penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[ ] You shop at walmart.
[ ] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 0

Result: I'm asian. (already knew that)

I'm picking songs to play on my wedding.

I'm not even dating anyone now, but one can never be enough prepared xD

I've already chosen so far:
Nothing else matters - Metallica
Fear of the dark - Iron maiden
Romeo and juliet, suite - Prokofiev
Secret Garde - Bruce Springsten
Sugar baby love - The Rubetts
All my life - KCI and JoJo
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
Cassis - Gazette (I kinda wanted to put The social riot machines xDD)

I'm still chosing.

Not one normal wedding song.

yeah, I'm weird.